feelin rather bummed.
i'm not jealous no.
i love my brother.
i just wished he'd talk to me more
blardy computer.
i could trade tons of stuff just so he'd throw the damn computer away.
i remeember i used to complain when he could go out with the church youth and he'd go out for so long.
i'd pay anything now
for him to go out with them
then spend time on his computer.
i miss him.
cos even when he's around,
he's not.
i don't know why
it just hurts.
kinda bad.
yep...


he's here
yet it seems
like it's only his silouhette
Its a dull cheer
knowing he'd ignore
his family for that

i have to stop crying
it's probably not of any worth
but each time i think of it
it gets on my nerve

i'd do anything in the world
to rewind the time
to when he'd build me tents
and show me how to climb

those boulders didn't seem so tall
when he was there to catch me if i were to fall

his smile, his laughter is begining to fade
can't no one tell?
doesn't no one care?
to have him back, the world i'd trade
to get him out of his shell
just for a day

can't anyone but me see he's fading away?
doesn't anybody know he's different from the past days?
and who knows if he's hurting inside
and all i can say, is i really tried.
-gloria