What if every road seems wrong
What if every truth seems fake
What if every friend you make
Turns out to be a mistake

What if your road of troubles seem so long
You're caught in that heavy miserable throng
What if you're letting go of trust
What if you begin to lose hope
You realize those smiles were only the crust
The trust you give out is just like soap.

And what if the light you thought so bright
seems to get dimmer everyday
What if the things you thought were worth the fight
Seems to end up blocking your way

Dear friend i don't have all the solutions
I'm still figuring it for myself
This feelings of mixed fusions
I've tried leaving them on the shelf

But they always find their way to me
And bring me hopeless falling to the ground
The only thing left to do is to face them
Show them they can't mess when you're around
There's no problem in the world to big
that you and God can't handle together
He'll keep you safe in His loving arms
Your worries shall vanish with him forever

Don't carry your burdens on your own
you'll soon find they're too much to bear
Surrender your troubles to Him
For you he really cares.

And when you're caught in the deepest torments
Facing the strongest wind
He'll be there to pull you through
On Him you can always lean.

You'll always have me as a friend
i may not be perfect
I may do stuff that i too, till this day regret.

but don't shoulder all your burdens alone
It's such a heavy stone
Know that anytime you need a friend
i'll be there
till the end.

-gloria

feelin rather bummed.
i'm not jealous no.
i love my brother.
i just wished he'd talk to me more
blardy computer.
i could trade tons of stuff just so he'd throw the damn computer away.
i remeember i used to complain when he could go out with the church youth and he'd go out for so long.
i'd pay anything now
for him to go out with them
then spend time on his computer.
i miss him.
cos even when he's around,
he's not.
i don't know why
it just hurts.
kinda bad.
yep...


he's here
yet it seems
like it's only his silouhette
Its a dull cheer
knowing he'd ignore
his family for that

i have to stop crying
it's probably not of any worth
but each time i think of it
it gets on my nerve

i'd do anything in the world
to rewind the time
to when he'd build me tents
and show me how to climb

those boulders didn't seem so tall
when he was there to catch me if i were to fall

his smile, his laughter is begining to fade
can't no one tell?
doesn't no one care?
to have him back, the world i'd trade
to get him out of his shell
just for a day

can't anyone but me see he's fading away?
doesn't anybody know he's different from the past days?
and who knows if he's hurting inside
and all i can say, is i really tried.
-gloria

you've had a world of chances to change
but you just got too obsessed in your own ways


yea i admit
i can't stand it.
but i grew up differently
so don't blame me
i got older knowing that it shouldn't be this way
it got crafted into me day after day

today was just tiring.
sadly it was our last DLT session.
and ballet was just.
ouch.
i think my toes died after pointe...

alright that's all.

-everytime you lie

left confused
feelings refused
what should i do
my soul's torn in two

what's wong with my head
pouring water into jars
what's wrong with what you said?
well, it's left scars

i'm long gone from the time when tears fell
i've left from my dreams, i've broken the shell
yet standing here realizing it all
i've found the bruises from my fall

when the shutters snapped shut
and then reopened
it left a cut
and yet it was chosen

maybe i knew it all along
maybe i just didn't want to see
maybe it was in the lines between that song
what's been is gone but i'll change what is to be

life is an essay without an eraser
the cancellation marks won't fully recover
they can't hide the fact
that there's been an error
they can't hide the tracks
of the hidden terror

-gloria

Thursday

coffee pork ribs for dinner.
got really high in the mrt cos of cofee and started embarrassingly pointing out
all those parts in macbeth for lit
out loud in the mrt.
i think my reputation is now completely gone
eitherwise only a small sliver of it is left.
that's the only thing i remember about thursday that's worth mentioning
netball was cool.
yea.


Friday
I'm sorry, i don't wanna be a news caster when i grow up.

i can't stand chinese class...
not that i can't stand.
i can't understand...
i don't even know what the news report is all about...
anyway,

nothing much today either.
looking forward to tomorrow.
previews are fun.



as the sun meets the earth
as the moon parts from the horizon.
as the ship leaves the firth
we watch all these in unision

another day has slipped by
almost without our knowing
one day down our life
without stopping it just kept going

as the absence of light becomes obvious
do we wonder what we've done of this day that's of any worth

as we gaze in reverent awe
at this picture painted my nature
do we realize one more day is gone forever

what then have we accomplished in this precious daylight
is it something we can only feel
or something by sight

go on change lives
touch a heart
it doesn't matter what other people think
so long as you do your part

cos when the dust settles
when the flames have lost their fuse
the only thing worth keeping
is the smile of someone you've helped
whom others have refused.

it's easy to help a beautiful seed
so i'm challenging you to help those really in need
they are the ones
dying for a kind deed

a simple smile to show them they're beautiful
for it counts more inside
then where people may view

When the day comes to an end,
when the sun settles down
moving somewhere else
to brighten the world of others
The deciding mood you wear- a smile or a frown
can come from what else?
but the way you dealt
with those cold shutters

It's not always easy
rather difficult in fact
but just focus on what you've to do
he'll keep the rest intact.
-gloria

as night falls
as dreams get shattered
as days past
as your heart gets tattered

as dawn breaks
as hope comes again
someone comes in
and turns you insane

when the last leave falls
as winter awaits
your thoughts of escaping this hell
is ripped away

the silhouette of the last soul fades away
watching today turn into yesterday
i'm afraid soon no one will stay
when they find out the truth about my sorrows
the ache behind the pain

i can't carry on like this
smiles don't always last
they crack their way into your heart
they leave you as an outcast

no amount of laughter
can wipe away the tears
no amount of joy
can wipe away the fears

hidden beneath the smiles
that few can ever see
lies those secrets that no one ever discovers
unless they bother to see through me

-gloria

it's about time you realize that you're not the only one
paintin the picture
thinkin you've won

it's about time you consider the fact
that someone else
might be better than that

where is your heart
where is your conscience
you play the part
but you claim the others

it's about time
you change your way of thinking
before you realize,
without them,
you're sinking.

-gloria

The autumn leaves fell
but you could never tell

you're still that girl
who never seems to fail to let people down
you leave them in a whirl
then you stab them without a sound

maybe its time you saw that its not about you anymore
your lies and games, leave no scar
not like they did before
cos now everyone knows who you really are

the strings you've tied are in one tangled mess
you're never gonna get out till you confess
but you've gone so far with so many lies
just one word, can't take away that look in your eyes

you're running from yourself
running from the truth
you're living in lies
drowning in your own shoes

keep walking your path
digging up dirt
unleash your wrath
cause the hurt

but soon you'll find out
the only one on the losing end is you
you may start these mind games
but mind you, you're just gonna lose

-gloria

Saturday
heyhey!!
lovely.
today was fun.
suprisingly more fun then i thought it'd be
first off in the morning,was breakfast!!
usually i just skip it,
but i was feeling high so...
then netball!!!
we were helping out with the DSA proccess
but i felt like a total failure.
wasn feelin really well.
felt so disorientated
haha,
ms lin was like"yea i could tell you're unwell you looked like ioooomm"
then she did a look a like of what i looked like
red faced, gonna die and
you get the point:D
then i headed down to novena
to meet my MOMMMIE!!eee!!
haha.YAMI YOUGHURT frozen with cereal is the best
forgetting the fact i was kinda sick
oh well,haha!we shopped a 'lil'
lunched at hans
and talked about harry potter
now,
talking to my mom can be frustratin but amusin just the same
for example
there was once
she asked my brother what he was doing
he was like "i'm playing x-box.
my dad asked my mom
"what is he doin?"
my mom went
"oh, he's playing with your ice-box"
oh well...
anyway,
then went down to church for worship practice
eek.
for some sense of funked miscommunication.
everyone thought there wasn any practice
oh well.
they were nice to rush down just the same
peachy.

yf was awesome.
i especially loved the games led by rachel!
don't forget the lyrics:)
great fun
the guys have weird impressions of certain songs though.
funny enough

after that was ayff
haha
after youth fellowship fellowship.
it was reunion with mos
though this time with a whole lot more people
it was rad fun
doin random stuff.
pointing upwards...
hahaha!
well, it was my first impression!!!
had a great awesome brilliant time!xd

lovely...

Sunday

worship was good,
mel did a good job lo!XD
lunch was at thompson plaza!!
I FOUND MCFLY'S RADIO ACTIVE CD!!!
finalllyyyyyy!!!!!!!!
i didn't buy it...
yep. feel the irony.

ballet was nuts.
i think my muscles are all torn now.
haha.
it was fun just the same though.
my poor friend loss her wallet
and i got to meet a cool girl
who has this funky cool accent
and she dances jaazzz!!
pretty erh?

haha.

dinner with aunty ju's family.
my brother and nat share the same birthday.
and i'm so envious.
i always wanted someone to share the same birthday with me!!
food was peachy.
filled up to the brim.

i didn't know spectators of short putt thingamajig
were in a cage.
good to know:)

anyway,
back home now...
alright.
that's all.

-Solo
You sing to me
Too bad you couldn't even stay on key
If your life is such a mystery
Why don't you just stick to acting
Oh Here we go again
You couldn't find my number until when
You thought that you could get to my best friend
Without a script your game is lacking

Thursday

today was awesome
haha, partially cos we got to do ballet during music(?)
don't ask me why, it's part of our curriculum
and i found out something
2G2 CAN DANCE!
hahaha!
we are brilliant:)
anyway, it was fun
my legs kept getting tangled.
a disgrace i know:)
oh well.

literature is interesting.
although i still think macbeth is morbit
oh well.
okay.
erh...

another thing.


yesterday was smack fun.
firstly,
the new vice principal came to our class
being young and innocent
or rather ignorant and rude
we didnt' know she was the vp.
so we were all "good morning teacher"
of course my friend's response was huge
whe the vp went "i'm your new vp"
she was like "HUH?!"
the vp was like :" and your dear friend here shows shock very evidently"
anyway,
she went on talking like all vps do.
and our dear wang tisa came back from a trip to i don't know where
cos her temp was above 37.6
anyway, she was like
"excuse me teacher, the person gave me this slip. what do i do?"
"then now how? aiyoh like that arh"
then the vp played along.
explained the slip
tisa was like
"huh, like that then how,arh, teacher you help me sign.
eh teacher i go toilet first ah, you wait"
when she left
the whole class was like
LAUGHIN THEIR GUTS TO THE HEAVENS OUT BRILLIANTLY CHOKING.
and the vp was really amused...
like.
okay...
anyway
poor tisa when she found out
i don't think she was that bothered though
she just went
"reallly arh?"
KINDA LOUDLY.
our dear tisa is really funnily amusin.

anyway,


today's high light was
HARRY POTTER with the netballers.
athough it was kinda blur,
forgot my lenses don't have my astimatism degree.
so...ouch for that.
the movie was okay i guess.
definitely hilarious and sweet
with chemistry between ron and hermoine.
haha. those two are super cute together.
but.
as for the other stuff
it wasn like awesome.
fun to watch
as a whole netball team...
but...
oh well.
it wasn the best one.
neat all the same
IT WAS HILARIOUS THOUGH
AND SUPER SADDDDED
especially when dumbledore died...(did i spell it right?)
anyway.

i'm suppose to be doing my homework.
but then
i wont get to tell you
that i'm suppose to be doing my homework...


lovely.



anyway,
i think i gtg now.
my eyes are closing.
talk more another time.





-don't say you're sorry
cos i'm not even hurting



REMEMBER TO BUY DEMI'S NEW ALBUM!!

Life can be such a pain
Life can really drive you insane.
Especially when you realize
now one's there to listen
know one even tries.

but just knowing that you'll be there
helped me get through
i'm so glad to have a friend
and awesome friend like you

even when i frowned
got drowned right in my sorrows
you came right around
promised me a better tomorrow.

you might think it's so cliche
but this line i've gotta say
the world comes to live and everything's right
from beginning to end when you've gotta a friend by your side

i've made so many idiotic mistakes.
i've lied, told anyone that i'm okay
but somehow you always knew
the feelings i held which i never say.

He blessed me with such an awesome friend like you
now i'm through in one piece
oh i wouldn't know what to do
if you had not come to pull he through.

i'm glad it's over
i'm glad i can smile
i'm too young to walk that long mile
the fork in the road i took a wrong turn.
but i guess it was worthwhile

i've come to know through a friend of mine
that He'll always be there
even though the silence rings so loud.
he'll pick you up
cos you're his child.

yesyes.
it's over.it's done. i'm glad. i'm free.
i'm too young for this.
so,
I'M GLAD IT'S OVER!
jest will agree.xd.

anyway,
just came back from Ikea with my dad...
it was awesome.
managed to pick up some gifts:)

this morning,
i jerked awake
and for some incredibly insane reason
probably the same reason why i wrecked english class
and hugged the wrong dad...
anyway,
i jumped outta bed.
like really fast
which is probably the reason why my leg hurts
like the leaning tower of pizza's leg hurts all the time.
bet you didn't know huh.
but the leaning tower of pizza's leg hurts all the time.
and why is that so?
simple.
It keeps leaning in one direction.
putting all its weight on one side
that is a giagantic horrendous leg injury waiting to happen.
believe me,
it's true.
anyway,
i jumped outa bed.
ran to my parent's room
went like
"I'M LAAATE FOR SCHOOOOL!!!!"
woke the hell outta them.
ran for the washroom,
brushed my teeth.
went back to the room
saw the time and almost fainted.
three in the morning is no time to wake up...

oh wells.
i reached school at the usual,
round six thirty five...
and slept
and slept.
and slept.
i love days without morning assembly:)

Pbl was today.
hated it.
haha.
cept for the fact that we gotta skip a few lessons.

oh well.



Eli: actually i came to propose
shelby: propose?!
Eli: well, after our first date when you told me you hate first dates and second dates,
i thought maybe we should just skip to marriage.
Amazingly, Shleby was able to believe
that he was only half joking.

yesyes.
i'm high!!
i re-read Jodi Picoult's Second Glance again.
i lovely awesome book.
sad, but seriously
you have to agreee.
Jodi Picoult's books are so awesome
the way she describes stuff
and the way she makes the characters' personality
create what happens next.

the way she writes about the lawsuits is so...
woah..
but my favourite is still My Sister's Keeper.
the lawsuits and storyline is
WOAH!

i've read it for thousands of times.
and i lost my book!!
sadddded...
oh well.
i'll find it...

can't wait to catch the movie.
My Sister's Keeper anyone?!
bring along a huge colossal tissue box...
you'll need it. :D

i'm in love with Jason Mraz's songs.
they are the best
hahaha!
not forgetting mcfly
but
i can't get radio active.
so.
oh well.
then there's demi's album coming out soon
whoops.
so much good music!!

yesterday's La La Land was
awesome fun.
wicked funny
entertaining
and my throat hurts!
jest, i love the whole mic surround system.
remined my of
mike stand...-ly
mike standly.
hahahahahah!!!!!

anyway,
JEST, THANKS SO MUCH FOR YOUR POEMS.
I'M FEELING LOADS BETTER NOW.
NOW THAT IT'S ALL OVER.
i just feel peachy
and and and

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alright, piano theory now
i'm always doing it last minute:D


-i've got beautiful eyes...
dude, you needa resize!xd

We keep doing what we do
has anyone ever thought if it'd be any use
What if none of our dreams come true
all that's left is a worn out fuse.

i had nothing to declare
no lies, no not even despair
but wrong digits spilled it out
my feeling's all gone
i'm left in the drought

If you keep heading in the wrong direction
If no one pulls you out, what'll happen
What if the torments ahead are unforseen
What if everything you know becomes a has been

what's wrong with love anyway
it comes so close then gets blown away
it's hard not to keep you wondering.
It really doesn't mea a thing

i've done what i should have
ticked all those little checks
but when you look back you come to realize
in the midst you get drowned in the lies.

don't ask me why
don't ask me how
i don't know
i'd never count