Okay,
i don't know why i am posting
when i'm suppose to be mopping the floor.
anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMIE!
haha. dunno why i did that since my mom
doesn use the computer at all...
but oh well
its the thought that counts eh?

watched shopaholic on friday at nine p.m.
and then slept over at charmaine's house
the movie was awesome!
but the price wasn so...
i change my mind.
that guy is old!
and on second thought, a little freaky
haha.
but the price wasn so...
but anyhow
THANKS CHARMAINE!
AND THANK YOU GONG GONG!
haha.
thats my granddad...
he's so funny.
and so is my grandmother
who is really cute.
and anyway

so yea.
nothing much to say
i'm so glad there isn school on friday.
BUT I THINK I'M GONNA DIE FOR HISTORY!
stupid usefulness
who cares if its useful or not
how am i suppose to rmb the format for usefulness?
its the easiest to memorise but hardest to apply
which leads me to say this: now i'm doin bad at every single sunject in school
how depressing is that?

i'm not saying i don't like school.
i'm saying it's so complicated and messy
i feel like crying
its like so weird
cos school is awesome fun
but
its so confusing
stupid fireworks just hates me!
and now photoshop disagrees with me!
and they cost so much!!
now i have to bring it to the T.A.
but i'm too lazy.
so i guess its my fault.
and i just know i'm gonna fail home ecs.
how'm i suppose to make a sweet pastry!
i don't even like sweet pastries all that much!
why can't it be freestyle!
and for science
why can't it be open book
YOU TELL ME WHAT BOOK TO OPEN
AND I'LL OPEN IT!
they sure make everything thrice as hard in school


Maybe no one told you there is strength in your tears
And so you fight to keep from pouring out
But what if you unlock the gate that keeps your secret soul
Do you think that there's enough you might drown
If no one will listen, if you decide to speak
If no one is left standing after the bombs explode
If no one wants to look at you for what you really are
I will be here still

No one can take you where you alone must go
There's no telling what you will find there
And God, I know the fear that eats away at your bones
It's screaming every step, "just stay here"
If no one will listen, if you decide to speak
If no one is left standing after the bombs explode
If no one wants to look at you for what you really are
I will be here still

If you find your fists are raw and red
From beating yourself down
If your legs have given out under the weight
If you find you've been settling for a world of gray
So you wouldn't have to face down your own hate

If no one will listen, if you decide to speak
If no one is left standing after the bombs explode
If no one wants to look at you for what you really are
I will be here still
'

such a cool song eh?
haha.
okay i gotta be goin now.

-cucmbers beat carrots