maybe it was the right thing to walk away
maybe it was the right thing to pretend it didn't hurt so much everyday
maybe it was the right thing to just let go
but at the end of time, i'll still never know
maybe it hurt when i turned away
maybe it hurt when your eyes bore down right deep and you had nothing to say
maybe it hurt because it mattered so much
it's probably because my life you've touched
maybe i couldn bear to see you leave
maybe i couldn understand you or anyone else
maybe i was lying to myself
its not about a stoled treat
neither was it anywhere near sweet
it just tasted bitter
and it just goes to show
it always hurts
when you let someone go

i haven't posted for a long time.
it's sad.
people everywhere around me are leaving.
and i watched education of little tree.
an orpahn said "grandpa, grandma, when do you think i can go up there to join ya'll. it's getting awful lonely being the one always left behind."
i cried.
so hard.

i got locked out of the house today.
felt lonlier than ever as i walked to the library.
then i got so absorped in a book.
till i finished it.
then i stopped.
well duh i stopped
i couldn have read it over again right?
it was an okay book i guess.


was with abigail at starbucks studyin yesterday.
i ordered the wrong thing.
haha.
and we had to top the drink with tons of milk and sugar...
or rather that sugar solution...
okay...
it was fun though...

today was tiring.
thats that...

-if only you knew