i'd curse the lscep project.
but then if i did,
it'll be more screwed then it already is..
have you seen our lscep project?
HAVE YOU SEEN IT?
or rather
HAVE YOU SEEN MY ADOBE FIREWORKS SKILLS?
they are like
i dunno
FAIL?!
my giddy aunt.
and finally,
after killing myself, i kinda finished one page,
and then
the whole thing got flunked.
i'm not saying those tiny stuff that are fixable
i'm talking about the whole page.
which made me swear
i'll never ever ever
be some weird computer adobe fireworks expert
who helps students do their projects if you pain them
i told my mom
she asked me how i could be so sure
and i told her cos there was no such thing
so she just gave me the weird look and left the room.
i hate fireworks.
actually not just fireworks,
i hate dreamweaver, flash and whatever my dad paid close to a hundred for.
stupid programs are so hard to use,
but not photoshop.
its the only thing i can use without jamming the computer.
i have absolutely
zero skill.
nil. none. nada.
and our project is due tmr.
lucky us.
i'm dead
poor jest.
where is lim huan?
ranice! i'm gonna strangle you.
you know what group work is?
you're suppose to do it in a group.
not by yourself.
which is what jest os doing cos i'm 90%useless.
the thrid subj which i get A1 in.
history, retardedness and uselessness.
what has the world come to?

today is sunday.
today is the day i'm suppose to study home econs
(studying home econs makes me feel like crap when i've got friends studying econs)
today is the day i'm suppose to do my newspaper article
today is the day i'm suppose to mop the floor
today is the day that i've been sleeping for i dunno?
since we came back?
i think my brother doesn have to go to the army!
he's sick!
lucky me
poor him...

i think i'm gonna faint soon.
i've got netball tmr.
which is getting traumatising.
have you ever played in a netball game?
each time i catch the ball
i feel adrenaline rush
cos i'm real relieved each time i manage to catch the ball.
but i can't pass properly.
i think i'm gonna die.
netball is a sport that i'd love even more if i could actually play it.

so now i'm posting cos i've nothing else to do.
don't worry, i have a life.
which is not to be mistaken with the life everybody has.
my life is like
weird?
i dunno.


okay here's the thing
i think
okay i dunno what i'm doing now.
i seriously don't
i don't wanna post
and i gon't feel like guitaring
cos now i'm feeling bummed
and realizing that my guitar skills are real close to nil
is gonna make me feel like i dunno?
an idiot?

so i'm gonna go now.
i'm probably gonna go sleep.
there's school tmr.
and i'm dreading in.
i'm dreading my alarm clock.
and thats bad
i don't think we're suppose to live our lives
dreading something every week.
well i am.
and i'm dreading home ecs tmr
and i'm dreading the lscep dateline tmr
and i'm dreading all those test this coming week
and oh my frangioskins.
i have a chinese test somehere this week?
and oh!
my favourite subject too!
MATH!
i'll tell you why i love math
because i know my results before i get my paper back.
that big ugly red f9.
why must school be a dread?

-cabbagehead