my brother's home!!
he looks better with his hair shaved
(i kinda figured out after the first few times after i used the term bald that he didn'r really like it...)

anyway, he treated us to a wonderful meal
THANK YOU GEGE!!!XDXDXD
anyway, it was glad to have him back.

he taught me how to shine his boots
and taught me to punch him and let me punch his apps...(is that what you call them?)
anyway,

so we had a good time!
and on sunday, he and daniel came in at the same time and it was kinda hilarious...
too bad my brother is in kestrel and daniel is in zebra warriors...
i kinda was hoping that they'd be in the same company or whatever you call those groups.

anyway,
then yea
happy new year!!
haha...
okay that was weird saying it in the middle of a post but oh well.
this year's new year was kinda strange.
firstly my brother was sick so only my mom and my dad and i went to charmaine's house to meet them to go around...
it didn feel new yearly for some reason...
but anyway.
and then charmaine and i went to watch a movie...
it was okay
not worth a tenner but oh well.
its the new year right?
i had a good time
although it was kinda freaky since most of the shops weren open...
so yea..
and my frozen yoghurt was closed....:(. sniffff....
but i had fun still!!
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR MY DEAR COUSIN!!!
okay yea...
thats all for now...


anywAY, due to some technical difficulties i am unable to produce the hong kong and philippines photos.... note how professional i'm tryin to sound and note how badly i'm failing...
so don't rub it in.
okay okay...

you're standing in moonlight
but you're black on the inside.
who do you think you are to cry?
this is GOODBYE!!!
happy new year dudes and dudettes and dukes and dukess and landlords and landladies
and businessmen and business women.....okay
bye!

FIFTEEEEEENNNNN!!!!

and here is a really sweet song by taylor swift: white horse
cool eh?




okay! yesyes i shall post bout my happy fifteenth!
haha.
school was okay..
we made pizza in home ecs!
mine turned out weird...
thanks to the oven(*wink)
those who know what really happened, please don't tell!
i'll die...
anyway,
then my dad drove cindy jest and i to go meet my mom at where else?
IKEA!
we were like hogging everything from stuffed things, puppets to swings and the blue dotted moon.(poke)

omgshthesebubblelikeanimalchairsarejustthecutest!!

okay this is what happens when you eat too much dinner.
retard+retard = retardness

we actually started off quite civilised.


"hmm, hair?"


then we end up, not very civilised.


suntan (gloria named it)



polka dots.




RETRO.




very oblivious.





disappearing act.



pinky&thebrain


last supper.

okey dokey.
so...my week has been rather weird.
i skipped school on monday cos i sprained my neck.
i went to school on tuesday to receive a pile of work.
i skipped school on wed to go to kkh. by the time i was done i couldn make it on time to return to school.and so i skipped my math test too
i went back to school on thursday to collect an even bigger pile of homework.
and tmr, i'm officially fifteen and i'm gonna take my first class test of the year.
thrilling.
right.
so anyway,
thanks to jest and didi, tmr will be fun!
i hope...
anyway,
i hope i don't do badly for history
seeing how i'm gonna do badly for the other subjects.
i'd better do better for this one.
anyway,
bintan trip soon!
actually
not so soon.
its in march...
which is kinda soon if you think about it but not as soon as i would like
thankfully its not durong the holidays...
or i'll just scream.

art today was saddedning.
i learned something i didnt wanna learn...
my tablet can't excess(however you spell it) the internet fast enough in the art room.
which is why i sat there waiting for ine single page to load...
i waited till the cows came home...
literally if you know what i mean.
oh well. jest's computer was worst though.
and i don't know about the rest...

anyway, netball was fun
but not the kinda fun which i'd like to have every week.
warm up was less then usual
and then they had this cca selection for the sec ones who want to get into netball.
and after that,
we had the perfect game of captain's ball!!
its not often we play captain's ball in netball
you can trust me on that...
while its more chaotic
i must admit it is kinda funner to play
if you don't turn it into a game.
or whatever.
tomorrow's history test...
i already said that i think.
anyway...

i miss my brother still.
he won't be around tomorrow.
he was always around.
sad though.
oh well.
i don't care where he is
he'd better sing along.
i'm not letting him off so easily!xd

okay...
nothing else much happened today...
oh! lscep!!!
we took funky pictures with jest's awesome digicam.
one with me as sir stamford raffles visiting our school...
okay you probably don't really wanna hear bout it.
anyway.
okok
i think thats all.
i better go.
before the big fish come.



-charged.
-i always thought there was something more to christmas morning

right. i'm back.
sorry i haven't posted for quite awhile.
anyway, well school's started.
and i'm feeling tired more than ever.
right.

and yea.
my brother's gone to ns.
gee wheezers that place is like a resort!
i mean their matresses are super comfy and they even have this cool mosquito net thing.
they are each given gilette fusion thingys or whatever you call them.
even my dad doesn't own one!
the place is on this island.
and it is awesome.
sadly though, we had to leave without my brother.
i sure miss him.
and yea, now when i'm not sleeping i'm bawling my eyes out and when i'm not doing that
i'm trying not to be some fountain and do some homework and eat.
its hard to py attention in school though
when you're wondering if you're dear brother is running his guts out
and tryna sleep in a new place.
i just hope no one in his room snores...
anyway,
yea.
i never thought i'd miss him this much
especially since i hardly see him when he's around anyway.
but its like even when i didn't talk to him
i can still sense he is around.
he's still there for me to fight with
he's still there to defend me from our parents
he's still there to order me around,
he's still there for me to ask to borrow things that aren't really his anyway
he's still there to remind ne that i've still got lots to learn in school
he's still there for me to stare at and wonder how some weird computer game could make him not talk to us that much and
i never thought i'd say this
but i'd buy him every meal
if only he didn't have to go.
i'm sure he looks good in his uniform.
and i'm sure he still looks like my own brother with his hair shaved.
he's still the same old person.
if i was younger i'd be sad he had to go
but if i was younger i won't be doing what i do now
which is to replay everything that happens at home when he is around
or to calculate that for the next two years the officers that don't love him like we do
would be seeing more of him than us.
its so unfair
those people won't miss him
so why take him away from the people who would?
even my mom misses him..
am i too drastic?
i mean its like for goodness sake its not like i'm not gonna ever see him again right?
i mean thats what i tell myself too
but i just keep having to fight bck my tears.
and i just keep trying so hard to think of other things.
what is wrong with me.


anyway, now's the weekends.
and i'm glad.
this morning my eyes were so puffy
my english teacher would probably make some rude comment about
me looking like a goldfish
or that anyone would have thought that i'd lost a million dollars.
on friday, thankfully,
i only teared abit.
it wasn that bad i guess,
since i occuppied myself by trying to copy down notes which are redundant.
but hey,
whatever goes right?
anyway,
thats all for now.

-that's cos i thought i knew you