maybe it was the way i wanted to make up for her.
i wanted one so bad, i'd blame myself.
maybe if i hadn;t murdered her,i wouldn be alive.
but i'd rather be the one someone was mourning for
then the person mourning.
i couldn care less that it might have been a boy.
whats the difference when you're trying to raise someone from the dead.
i don't care if they say it isn because of me.
maybe i'm too wild.maybe i think too much
but that's the way i'll think it and even if you deny it
the words bratty, not reliable, good for nothing lazy
are the only ones that stayed
i hope you're happy now.
i don't care if the world revovled around you
i don't care if i wasn the one they expected
i got chosen and i'm here tryna make sense of it all.
i don't wanna be dumped on this earth if i'm not gonna try anything at all.
i'm gonna try things more than just raw salmon.
it's not like i ever wanted it to happen.
say hello heaven for me then yea?
was that what i was suppose to tell him?
or her whatever.
i wasn even here yet why should it concern me?
maybe someone hit my head real hard
but whatever it was, it's why i think
that no one ever covers up for their mistakes.
and i was the result.
i think it's the best you'll ever get so you'll just hafta live with it.
by the way its not that i don't wanna go
i just don't wanna leave.
forget about all the fairytales.
i can't tell you how happy i was when i let go.
but it wasn't enough was it.
i'm such an idiot for thinking
i had made a difference in whatever happened.
when i'm not sitting around wonderin what to do with myself,
i'm staring at the screen trying to start a conversation,
act normal.
but people? normal?
its an equation that no one can solve
and i won't bother trying.
don't say goodbye.
you don't mean it.
-sorry's not good enough
i hate sad ones. but i'm so sorry, their the only ones that count
"life on fire"
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